I LIVED WITH A SEVEN YEAR ETCHED SCRATCH – HOW TORMENTING
Like a sharp steel screwdriver etching itself across twenty years of music, was there ever an ability to get over it?
The holistic sound of the vinyl record until that bloody scratch, that irritating scratch, that damaged scratch appears.
How did it happen?, who did it?, why did it happen?, when did it happen?, What are we supposed to do now?
Stopping the damaged cycles of
WE MUST CHANGE THE RECORD
Some things in life are irreparable, when we accept it, we can move on and be open to music we haven’t heard yet..
My worst years were between 38 years of age to 45 years of age. I was so damaged mentally, emotionally and physically and I saw no possibility of change. Seven years stuck in that scratch.
“Do I have a reason to live?”
“Is there an end to this torment?”
“Why am I so angry?”
“Who else is coming after me?”
“Who else do I have to fight?”
UNTIL I CHANGED THE RECORD
No, I wasn’t an alcoholic, drug addict, I was a successful pastor, parent, husband and citizen. My core beliefs were put to the test and I got sacked by a world wide religious organisation when I challenged the powers that be on their unethical behaviour.
They stripped me of my credentials, turned their back on me and let me fend for my family in the wilderness in complete shame. It was like a screw driver etching its sharp steel across twenty years of beautiful music.
I may as well have been an alcoholic or drug addict, I was completely damaged and that scratch repeated itself for seven years.
Until I changed the record, I started fresh and have lived life like there’s no tomorrow ever since.
Over the last ten years, scratches still appear from time to time but I don’t get stuck on the…
When I realise I’m stuck, I change the record.. most of the scratches that appear these days are of my doing through mishandling situations and dealing with my selfishness.
No matter how careful I am, scratches still present themselves which is different from self sabotage or others sabotaging my life.
My ability to constantly change the record comes from a simple understanding..
I am deeply loved by God and life doesn’t give me what I deserve, it gives me what I believe.
God’s love will cause you to hear music you’ve never heard before that will take you places you’ve never been.
Your etched scratch may seem a life sentence until
YOU CHANGE THE RECORD
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